Tale of Two Guys - The evening before and the morning after

THE EVENING BEFORE

R: ayoko na. sawa na ako.

H: Ewan ko ang gulo mo, kanina and lambing mo ngaun ang sungit mo.

R: ur not just complicated, ur also inconsistent. i don’t need anything from u other than being emotionally stable so i can lean on you with my unstability. however ur worse than me. can u please remind me, why do we need to work this rel out?

H: Tell me ano gnawa kong masama?

H: I give up…

R: am already drug resistant from ur medication.

H: Wala akong ginawang masama. Pls lets sleep na muna.

R: next time learn not to say too much coz ur making others expect too much as well.

H: Kala ko ba hindi na tayo magaaway. Bkt snisimulan mo na naman? Sorry na kung ano man un sa tingin mong nagawa kong mali. Nalulungkot ako sa trato mo sa akin. Haaay… Gnyt. Pahinga ka na. Pagod ka lang kc you had a tough day.

R: i dont care about you anymore. good luck.

H: i dont care about you anymore. good luck. – I KNW. Matagal mna pnapafeel sa akin yan.

(H calling R’s cell phone several times… R is dropping each call)

H: If you mean what u say, pls answer my cal.

R: what for?

(H calling R’s cell phone several times… R is dropping each call)

H: If you mean what u say, pls answer my cal.

R: am saving you time and load. am sleeping now. maaga pa ako mamaya babyhe na nman. no time for this useless hoolabaloo. gawin mo gusto mo. gnyt.

H: S this how you want to end this? Un may sama ka ng loob sa akin? At least have the decency of answering my calls.

R: dont threaten me. it doesnt work. And I dont like threats.

H: I am not threatening u. I jst want to talk and ayusin bago man lang matapos.

R: H im the most patient person perhaps u ever met, i dunno pero naubos pasenxa ko sayo. mas complicated at inconsistent ka pa sakin.

R: its 2 am for christsake.mya-mya babyhe na nman ako. i barely have rest! what do you need???

R: im sleeping.

H: Talk to me, I just want to end all of this nicely.

R: the best thing to do is go back to bed and sleep.

H: Gnyt. I never met sum1 who would hurt me as much as u did. Goodbye R. It was nice meeting u. Thanx for everything. Ul never feel anymore of me ever again.

R: im a good person H. i never hurt anybody. sorry if u got coz of this “love”…sometimes I think maybe its jst fate. sorry.

R: nakatulog ako. uwanna talk?

(H’s cell phone ringing, R calling… no answer)

R: sorry nakatulog ako. wanna talk?

(H’s cell phone ringing, R calling… no answer)

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THE MORNING AFTER

R: my parents want me to get married and have kids, i told them ill do that when im 26 :-(

H: That’s what ur parents want. What do you want?

R: i think i like the idea too… but nothing in the future is certain…

H: That’s good. Hav a gud life then. Good luck. Apparently, thers no place for me n ur future. L find a gud spot somewhere else. Thanx for letting me know.

H: i think i like the idea too… but nothing in the future is certain… - Then that’s sumthing to look forward to. A reason to b happy. M happy for u.

R: cant we just keep what we have now?

H: Ngaun palang, ideal palang nasasaktan na ako. What more after 4 years, na u hav to leave me kc nga sa gusto ng pamilya mo?

R: that answers ur question last nyt. thats whre all my anger comes from… given a choice i can freely make w/o anobody influencing me, ill choose to be a priest.

H: “that answers ur question last nyt. thats whre all my anger comes from… given a choice i can freely make w/o anobody influencing me, ill choose to be a priest.” – Then I suggest u stand up to what you u want and not what others want for u.

R: akala mo ba madali maipit sa lahat? :-( jst thinking of it makes me sad. Also, that whatever Ill deicde lagging may party na masasaktan. haayz. anyway minsan i just wanna forget whatever bounds me and jst live in the present.

H: Maikli lang ang buhay R and we must live it happily.

H: “minsan i just wanna forget whatever bounds me and jst live in the present.” – AND THATs WHAT u SHOULD BE DOING. Dnt make life so difficult. Knw what, heres what i can do… I can knock down 1 wall that binds u. At least ul hav 1 spot na open, luk at d view and enjoy d scenery. Or i cn make a window on that wall, f u don’t want me to knock it down :-)

R: am happy as i am, i can die contented. my only mission left in life is make others happy. the problem is, its an ordeal. :-(

H: “my only mission left in life is make others happy.” – WE DNT LIVE TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY. Thats the BIGGEST misconception of living. We live 2 make a full life, 1 that we’re happy of. N d process we make other’s happy, given na un. And n d same manner, f u dnt live a happy life, other’s lyf myt not become happy too.

R: am happy na nga as i am. its the other way around for me. other’s unhappiness affects me… :-
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H: So kung nahhrapan at naiipit ka, it myt not b a happy life. U need 2 reevaluate.

R: exactly kasi nga am affected by others’ wants.

H:Ur nt Christ. U only get 1 life. Live it and make it full. No need 2 get affected by other people’s unhappiness. U dnt need 2 please anybody but ur self.

R: its false. coz bata pa ako I already feel this way. like i always tell you, i live for others. u didnt ask why i shifted to devt studies even my parents wated me to take management. nor even thought that before depression struct me, i used to be an indigenous people’s advocate… yung lang kasayahan ko.

H: Then u should do what makes you happy. Doing what makes u happy doesn’t mean u wont care for others. Hav a gud 1 today. Ingat. :-)

H: L knock 1 wall down for u para you wont feel boxed. I promise everything will be ok soon.

R: I don’t knw abt knocking downwalls like ur saying but i think i would prefer tearing it down myself. :-(

H: I am that wall. F u want to tear it down… A hammer hitting the d wall woudnt be that painful or hard anymore.

H: Kc admittedly, m d only movable wall right now.

R: :-( well i am responsible for letting u build that wall in the first place. remember i was building one when i met u. sorry I dragged you in my messy life.

H: And ur still building that wal u were building b4 i came.

H: can we be special friendsSPECIAL FRIENDS for now? I wnt to give u enough space para maayos mo kung ano dapat mong ayusin. Wag mo muna ako alalahanin. I will be fine. Ako na mismo nagta-time deposite sa sarili ko.

R: maybe. can i just keep your wall? or is it urgent u have to go and tear it down?

H: Sure. U can keep me as long as u want, as long as u need me. U will always be special to me. No need to tear down any wall. Walang magbabago. Promise.

R: naiinis ako kasi kung kelan mahal na kita, dun ako naiipit… bsta the future is malleable naman eh. we can shape it to whatever we want.

H: Wag ka mainis. Challenges cums when we’re n our strongerst state. I will always be here. Hindi ako mawawala. Thats an assurance. Pahinga ka muna.

H: I will always b here if u need me.

R: ill also be here for u.