Friday, July 31, 2009


Here comes the sun Little darlin, here comes the sun I say, its all right, its all right
(Repeat 1)

Little Darlin its been a long cold and lonely winter, little darlin it feels like years since you've been here

Little darlin the smiles have returned to the faces now little darlin it seems like years since you've been here

Little darlin its been a long cold lonely winter, little darlin it feels like years since you've been here

Here somes the sun, arent you glad to see it, I say its all right

Here comes the sun little darlin, I say Its alright

Here comes the sun, Here comes the sun I say Little Darlin, it seems like years since you've been here
Little darlin here comes the sun, its all right
You can come on out

Tale of Two Guys - The evening before and the morning after


R: ayoko na. sawa na ako.

H: Ewan ko ang gulo mo, kanina and lambing mo ngaun ang sungit mo.

R: ur not just complicated, ur also inconsistent. i don’t need anything from u other than being emotionally stable so i can lean on you with my unstability. however ur worse than me. can u please remind me, why do we need to work this rel out?

H: Tell me ano gnawa kong masama?

H: I give up…

R: am already drug resistant from ur medication.

H: Wala akong ginawang masama. Pls lets sleep na muna.

R: next time learn not to say too much coz ur making others expect too much as well.

H: Kala ko ba hindi na tayo magaaway. Bkt snisimulan mo na naman? Sorry na kung ano man un sa tingin mong nagawa kong mali. Nalulungkot ako sa trato mo sa akin. Haaay… Gnyt. Pahinga ka na. Pagod ka lang kc you had a tough day.

R: i dont care about you anymore. good luck.

H: i dont care about you anymore. good luck. – I KNW. Matagal mna pnapafeel sa akin yan.

(H calling R’s cell phone several times… R is dropping each call)

H: If you mean what u say, pls answer my cal.

R: what for?

(H calling R’s cell phone several times… R is dropping each call)

H: If you mean what u say, pls answer my cal.

R: am saving you time and load. am sleeping now. maaga pa ako mamaya babyhe na nman. no time for this useless hoolabaloo. gawin mo gusto mo. gnyt.

H: S this how you want to end this? Un may sama ka ng loob sa akin? At least have the decency of answering my calls.

R: dont threaten me. it doesnt work. And I dont like threats.

H: I am not threatening u. I jst want to talk and ayusin bago man lang matapos.

R: H im the most patient person perhaps u ever met, i dunno pero naubos pasenxa ko sayo. mas complicated at inconsistent ka pa sakin.

R: its 2 am for christsake.mya-mya babyhe na nman ako. i barely have rest! what do you need???

R: im sleeping.

H: Talk to me, I just want to end all of this nicely.

R: the best thing to do is go back to bed and sleep.

H: Gnyt. I never met sum1 who would hurt me as much as u did. Goodbye R. It was nice meeting u. Thanx for everything. Ul never feel anymore of me ever again.

R: im a good person H. i never hurt anybody. sorry if u got coz of this “love”…sometimes I think maybe its jst fate. sorry.

R: nakatulog ako. uwanna talk?

(H’s cell phone ringing, R calling… no answer)

R: sorry nakatulog ako. wanna talk?

(H’s cell phone ringing, R calling… no answer)



R: my parents want me to get married and have kids, i told them ill do that when im 26 :-(

H: That’s what ur parents want. What do you want?

R: i think i like the idea too… but nothing in the future is certain…

H: That’s good. Hav a gud life then. Good luck. Apparently, thers no place for me n ur future. L find a gud spot somewhere else. Thanx for letting me know.

H: i think i like the idea too… but nothing in the future is certain… - Then that’s sumthing to look forward to. A reason to b happy. M happy for u.

R: cant we just keep what we have now?

H: Ngaun palang, ideal palang nasasaktan na ako. What more after 4 years, na u hav to leave me kc nga sa gusto ng pamilya mo?

R: that answers ur question last nyt. thats whre all my anger comes from… given a choice i can freely make w/o anobody influencing me, ill choose to be a priest.

H: “that answers ur question last nyt. thats whre all my anger comes from… given a choice i can freely make w/o anobody influencing me, ill choose to be a priest.” – Then I suggest u stand up to what you u want and not what others want for u.

R: akala mo ba madali maipit sa lahat? :-( jst thinking of it makes me sad. Also, that whatever Ill deicde lagging may party na masasaktan. haayz. anyway minsan i just wanna forget whatever bounds me and jst live in the present.

H: Maikli lang ang buhay R and we must live it happily.

H: “minsan i just wanna forget whatever bounds me and jst live in the present.” – AND THATs WHAT u SHOULD BE DOING. Dnt make life so difficult. Knw what, heres what i can do… I can knock down 1 wall that binds u. At least ul hav 1 spot na open, luk at d view and enjoy d scenery. Or i cn make a window on that wall, f u don’t want me to knock it down :-)

R: am happy as i am, i can die contented. my only mission left in life is make others happy. the problem is, its an ordeal. :-(

H: “my only mission left in life is make others happy.” – WE DNT LIVE TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY. Thats the BIGGEST misconception of living. We live 2 make a full life, 1 that we’re happy of. N d process we make other’s happy, given na un. And n d same manner, f u dnt live a happy life, other’s lyf myt not become happy too.

R: am happy na nga as i am. its the other way around for me. other’s unhappiness affects me… :-

H: So kung nahhrapan at naiipit ka, it myt not b a happy life. U need 2 reevaluate.

R: exactly kasi nga am affected by others’ wants.

H:Ur nt Christ. U only get 1 life. Live it and make it full. No need 2 get affected by other people’s unhappiness. U dnt need 2 please anybody but ur self.

R: its false. coz bata pa ako I already feel this way. like i always tell you, i live for others. u didnt ask why i shifted to devt studies even my parents wated me to take management. nor even thought that before depression struct me, i used to be an indigenous people’s advocate… yung lang kasayahan ko.

H: Then u should do what makes you happy. Doing what makes u happy doesn’t mean u wont care for others. Hav a gud 1 today. Ingat. :-)

H: L knock 1 wall down for u para you wont feel boxed. I promise everything will be ok soon.

R: I don’t knw abt knocking downwalls like ur saying but i think i would prefer tearing it down myself. :-(

H: I am that wall. F u want to tear it down… A hammer hitting the d wall woudnt be that painful or hard anymore.

H: Kc admittedly, m d only movable wall right now.

R: :-( well i am responsible for letting u build that wall in the first place. remember i was building one when i met u. sorry I dragged you in my messy life.

H: And ur still building that wal u were building b4 i came.

H: can we be special friendsSPECIAL FRIENDS for now? I wnt to give u enough space para maayos mo kung ano dapat mong ayusin. Wag mo muna ako alalahanin. I will be fine. Ako na mismo nagta-time deposite sa sarili ko.

R: maybe. can i just keep your wall? or is it urgent u have to go and tear it down?

H: Sure. U can keep me as long as u want, as long as u need me. U will always be special to me. No need to tear down any wall. Walang magbabago. Promise.

R: naiinis ako kasi kung kelan mahal na kita, dun ako naiipit… bsta the future is malleable naman eh. we can shape it to whatever we want.

H: Wag ka mainis. Challenges cums when we’re n our strongerst state. I will always be here. Hindi ako mawawala. Thats an assurance. Pahinga ka muna.

H: I will always b here if u need me.

R: ill also be here for u.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

A Little Fall of Rain... can hardly hurt me now

Sometimes, we get hurt so bad that we don't feel it anymore.

We do things beyond our capacity, mostly in the name of love, and it's amazing how we are able to do it.

We try so hard to make everything feel alright, to make all the hurt feelings just go away...

Don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
You're here, that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers grow.

But you will live, 'Ponine - dear God above,
If I could heal your wounds with words of love.

Just hold me now, and let it be.
Shelter me, comfort me

You would live a hundred years
If I could show you how
I won't desert you now...

The rain can't hurt me now
This rain will wash away what's past
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
I'll sleep in your embrace at last.

The rain that brings you here
Is Heaven-blessed!
The skies begin to clear
And I'm at rest
A breath away from where you are
I've come home from so far
So don't you fret, M'sieur Marius

I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now

That's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close

MARIUS(in counterpoint)
Hush-a-bye, dear Eponine,
You won't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt you now
I'm here

I will stay with you
Till you are sleeping

And rain...

And rain...

Will make the flowers...

Will make the flowers... grow...

Monday, July 27, 2009

Li'l Bro's Promise

I promise to keep you forever in my heart as my kuya or whatever, we'll be special friends ready to help each other.

I promise to be honest to each other. Always. But not too brutally honest.

I promise to give you your lifetime supply of hugs. I'll throw in a kiss from time to time kung sale. And even if we're far apart... Just hug the air at your place, and I’ll hug in mine. And even if miles do separate us, we'll still feel each other's hug

I promise not to leave you. But promise me that you'll keep me in the list (if not the first) to go to if you need any help, emotional or anything.

Promise me you'll keep in touch. even if we get separated by circumstances.

Savage Garden Truly Madly Deeply ASL

Tight hug, Jollibee, Harbor Square, "My Sister's Keeper", and good memories to come.

The Boy Who Cried Wolf

There once was a shepherd boy who was bored as he sat on the hillside watching the village sheep. To amuse himself he took a great breath and sang out, "Wolf! Wolf! The Wolf is chasing the sheep!"

The villagers came running up the hill to help the boy drive the wolf away. But when they arrived at the top of the hill, they found no wolf. The boy laughed at the sight of their angry faces.

"Don't cry 'wolf', shepherd boy," said the villagers, "when there's no wolf!" They went grumbling back down the hill.

Later, the boy sang out again, "Wolf! Wolf! The wolf is chasing the sheep!" To his naughty delight, he watched the villagers run up the hill to help him drive the wolf away.

When the villagers saw no wolf they sternly said, "Save your frightened song for when there is really something wrong! Don't cry 'wolf' when there is NO wolf!"

But the boy just grinned and watched them go grumbling down the hill once more.

Later, he saw a REAL wolf prowling about his flock. Alarmed, he leaped to his feet and sang out as loudly as he could, "Wolf! Wolf!"

But the villagers thought he was trying to fool them again, and so they didn't come.

At sunset, everyone wondered why the shepherd boy hadn't returned to the village with their sheep. They went up the hill to find the boy. They found him weeping.

"There really was a wolf here! The flock has scattered! I cried out, "Wolf!" Why didn't you come?"

An old man tried to comfort the boy as they walked back to the village.

"We'll help you look for the lost sheep in the morning," he said, putting his arm around the youth, "Nobody believes a liar...even when he is telling the truth!"


Tale of Two Guys (Hopefully, the last of it)

... Most of the time, we're just to blind to see what's already staring us in the face.



R: Gusto ko na mag-give up.

H: S that what you realy want?

R: yes u may take what’s urs. jst leave what’s mine. napapagod na ako. i need a break.

H: OK. You win! L tel abi nalang to deposite the cheque tom. L leave nxt weekend. :-( ur so unfair.

R: no prob w/ my checks its all funded.


R: sorry. i jst have to do what i have to do.


R: I don’t hate u. i js have to do what is best. i jst need to do this.

H: U made me believed u sincerely want to work it out bet us. I HATE U. I HATE LIERS.

R: H sorry kahit ako nasasaktan din. i jst need to do this.

H: I DONT BELIEVE U. –“ H sorry kahit ako nasasaktan din. i jst need to do this” – I DON’T BELIEVE YOU ANYMORE. UR D BOY WHO CRIED WOLF! And how dare you say you miss me. I HATE YOU!

R: :-( i have no choice. sorry.




R: kumain ka na?

H: Hindi pa. Dpa ako nagugutom.

R: :-( nalungkot ako sa nagyari today.

H: Kahit ako. Pero nasaktan ako more than nalungkot :-(

R: nasaktan din ako sa ginawa ko.

H: :-( I’ve forgiven you and I’ve forgvin my self. Another lesson learned.

R: :-( sorry tlga…

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Quotes I liked from "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult

-- "Maybe who we are isn't so much about what we do, but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it."

-- "You don't love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not"

Friday, July 24, 2009

Tale of Two Guys - July 20, 2009 SMS conversation

Robert: ano gawa mo? so boring…

Robert: ako < --- emo sa barko.

Herman: bakit ka emo?

Robert: babe honestly, di ko pinagplanuhan na maging tayo. all i want is to be single para mas mabuti ko maayos buhay ko. but i hope we work this out…

Herman: I realy hope we could work this out. Sna wag ka mag give up. Huhu.

Robert: :-(

Herman: Huhu. That seems like theres a possibility ur gona give up on us ah.

Herman: Kausap ko nga un frnd ko asking for advice… Sabi nya wag mag give up. At least daw masasabing ive tried and did my best to work thngs out. Nalulungkot ako dun sa huli mong sinabi :-(

Herman: Nalulungkot ako kc m doing my best 2 better my self and make thngs better… tapos ikaw maggiveup ka lang. Nakaklungkot isipin yung ganun.

Robert: iniisip ko nga parang unfair ako e. :-( nalulungkot ako kac kaw ung tipong tao who dont dserve to be hurt.

Herman: M reading ur old txt. U said: babe, i miss u so much… ur smart, ur goodlookin, u got a hot bod, ur funny, ur sweet… am so lucky to have you… am scared coz now am really falling in love. i hope you wont break my heart, coz u knw ill nvr break yours! tc :-)

Robert: minsan naiisip ko we just met at d wrong time… :-(

Herman: There’s no other time. We were bound to meet when we met. Thnk of happy thots. I misd the way u used to check on me, say u miss me and how u always remind me n words that u love me.

Robert: :-(

Herman: Ang ironic, kc m doin all i can to assure u of my love… ikaw naman u wnt a single persons life, w/c makes me insecure. Hay… theres no perfect relationship naman. Irs always a 2way street and team effort. Stil, m hoping for d best.

Robert: feeling ko i need time to love myself and be selfish. sa tingin ko kac ive been to consecutive relationships, and am jst wanting time for myself. anyway, kahit ganon am still glad u r thre 4 me.

Herman: That’s a gud way to start loving urself. Bt don’t be too selfish ha? Question lang… So san ako lulugar in all of that?

Herman: Does that mean naka time deposite na ako?

Herman: feeling ko i need time to love myself and be selfish. – kung sakaling ganito nga? Wud it still mean na love mpa din ako? San ako dapat lumugar?

Robert: lets jst work this out. jst gve me enuf breathing space. :-)

Robert: Ok. Fair enough (smiley). Asahan ko yan ha?

Robert: yung gusto ko lang alam mo pinapasok mo kasi ayoko darating yung araw magtanim ka ng galit sakin in case mahurt kita.

Herman: I knw what m getting my self into. Bt don’t make it sound like thats a license 4u to hurt me.

Robert: i have no ryt to hurt u in anyway. we’re both jst as vulnerable to get hurt.

Herman: Thanx. That’s an assurance.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Quotes from Lemony Snicket's "Series of Unfortunate Events"

Sanctuary... is a word which here means a small, safe place in a troubling world. Like an oasis in a vast desert or an island in a stormy sea. (found @ 2:11 on the video below)


[first lines]
Lemony Snicket: [the Littlest Elf has just come to an abrupt halt] I'm sorry to say that this is not the movie you will be watching. The movie you are about to see is extremely unpleasant. If you wish to see a film about a happy little elf, I'm sure there is still plenty of seating in theatre number two. However, if you like stories about clever and reasonably attractive orphans, suspicious fires, carnivorous leeches, Italian food and secret organizations, then stay, as I retrace each and every one of the Baudelaire children's woeful steps. My name is Lemony Snicket, and it is my sad duty to document this tale.

[last lines]
Lemony Snicket: Dear reader, there are people in the world who know no misery and woe. And they take comfort in cheerful films about twittering birds and giggling elves. There are people who know that there's always a mystery to be solved. And they take comfort in researching and writing down any important evidence. But this story is not about such people. This story is about the Baudelaires. And they are the sort of people who know that there's always something. Something to invent, something to read, something to bite, and something to do, to make a sanctuary, no matter how small. And for this reason, I am happy to say, the Baudelaires were very fortunate indeed.

Source: Internet Movie Data Base

Tale of two guys - Conversation over SMS

HERMAN: (5:04 am) L hav a long day 2day and a cmfortble shrt wud b perfect. That red shrt feels very cmfortable 4me,tapos ayaw mo ipahram. Now m wearing a shrt not so comfortable and L b wearing ths the rest of the day.

ROBERT: (4:59) bahala ka mabadtrip. U don’t trust me.

HERMAN: (5:08 am) I trust u babes. Mejo nagmamadali lang ako. Pasensya na. I Love u. (smiley)

ROBERT: (5:03 am) ok. take care. honestly you won’t feel comfortable in that shirt. 1. its Kevin’s fave. i feel nega wearing it at impt situations. 2. its not cotton, mainit. 3. may amoy sya kahit konting mapawisan ka. so sorry. sometimes u jst hve to trust me.

ROBERT: 5:05 am) i hope there will come a day i wont have to explain everything so much (coz i know I have the right not to) w/o making u mad. u just have to trust me.

HERMAN: (5:19 am) I trust u. I dont know lots of stif like thngs frm d past that m nt part of, like the history of that shrt so u hav 2 let me knw. Let me knw once and L remember it for gud. Dnt wory, i remember all our shared experiences so time wil come na u dnt hav to explain to me. I love u babes.

ROBERT: (5:06 am) take care. ok? i care for you.

HERMAN: (5:22 am) Thanx.

ROBERT: (5:13 am) ok. good luck.

ROBERT: (5:34 am) we need to keep distant from each other if we want us to make it thru. pls. i hope you remember that i made it clear to u why I moved out of my old place and started anew.

HERMAN: (5:46 am) I remember clearly. I was just n a hury kanina. What d u exactly mean by “distant”?

ROBERT: (5:40 am) basta “space”. honestly this has nothing to do with you kanina. i am suppose to txt you that yesterday. i remembered to to txt it to u jst nw.

HERMAN: (5:49 am) Space… sure. (smiley)

HERMAN: (5:51 am) Basta u promise 2 make gud use of that space to over come some of d issues na kontrolado mo. M at the gallery na. start of my long day na. Haay… I love u.

ROBERT: (5:45 am) ok. thanks. pero I think that will involve u not staying at “our” place…cge sorry to bother u. i hope i am not giving you a hard time.

HERMAN: (5:53 am) Ur asking me to move out?

HERMAN: (5:55 am) when you go home to the province, isn’t that more than enough space?

ROBERT: (5:49 am) i guess not. im sorry I have to put you thru all this mess. i just need a sanctuary. away from my family. Away from anyone else.

HERMAN: (5:58 am) Are u asking me to move out? Pano set up natin, like meeting and stuff?

HERMAN: (6:00 am – me calling you via land line) Pls answer d phone. I need 2 at least resolve ths and nt think of it the whole day.


(had an intense discussion over the phone)


HERMAN: (6:21 am) I feel guilty, i feel bad. Wla pko gnagawa i feel tired already. I feel fuckd up and low. M sorry hindi ako mkapagisip ng matino ds morning. Mahal kita and thats an assurance. L do whatever makes u happy.

ROBERT: (6:13) stop sounding like a victim coz apparently u also have a part in this.

ROBERT: (6:15 am) alam mo if ur a victim, u r ur own murderer.

HERMAN: (6:23 am) I wnt to make thngs better. Pls let me knw what will make u feel ok.

ROBERT: (6:19am) nothing i know of. jst move on w/ ur day. Resume. and stop making excuses for urself. Not your fault, ok? stop also sounding like a victim coz it irritates me. if ur strong, learn to control and manage urself. take care. sorry for the bother.

ROBERT: (6:22am) Naiinis lang ako kasi mahusay ka in making me look bad. but apparently that just aggravate things. i may have problems w/ my life, but am not evil. i do not intend to hurt anybody.

HERMAN: (6:35 am) I don’t try 2 make u luk bad nor luk like the victim. I would understand y ud see it that way. Sory kung may nasabi akong hindi mo nagustuhan I jx say thngs based on how i see and feel. F mali ako just let me knw. I want to make things better, no pretence, all sincerity.

HERMAN: (6:36) Nainis ako sa sarili ko.Im in such a hury naiwan ko yung fliers.


(1 missed call)


ROBERT: (6:32 am) san ka pinakamalapit anytime? Ihatid ko jan.

ROBERT: (6:35 am) malakas ulan dito. jst tel me wher to drop ur thing off so u wont waste gas and time.

ROBERT: (6:43 am) sobrang lakas ulan dito. huwag ka na umuwi. Jst tell me where is the nearest point I can drop it off.

HERMAN: (6:51 am) Sorry i missed ur call. Super lakas dn ulan d2. Ok lng, pwede pa naman cguro ihabol bkas un flier. Dnt wory about it.

HERMAN: (6:56) Babes, sorry i upset u ths morning. I knw u dnt need me pero i trust you and believe that u love me. And for that, I am sincerely happy. Sna alam mo din na mahal kita. Pasensya na, hati kc un isip ko ths morning kc nga daming gagawin today.

ROBERT: (6:51 am) focus on your job.

HERMAN: (7:36 am) Babes, whats my assurance na pnapamove out mo lang ako, at hindi gusto mo makipaghiwalay sa akin? Kc ang fear ko s not moving out but takot ako nab aka gusto mo na akong hiwalayan.

HERMAN: (7:45 am) I Love You.

HERMAN: (7:56 am) Babes, i want u to knw that i love u. I feel like an idiot for not understanding ur needs. All I ever wanted s for you to be happy. I love you very much.