Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Lessons learned



It wasn’t an accident (I guess). I broke my laptop LCD last night. Ironically, I did not feel remorseful about it… I was just worried that I have my entire work file in it and I might not be able to access them unless I have the monitor replaced, and that would cost money.


I was supposed to feel bad about the damage my gadget incurred, but for some unexplainable reason, the incident made me become calm and quiet. Different from how I used to be. I think it’s a good thing… For me, it’s a lesson learned. I am grateful.


I felt in control while containing all my emotions within me, but by doing so I was being drained with all my physical energy. It’s amazing how brain and emotional work drain the energy out of us. I felt sleepy and tired and hateful of my self. But I understood where I was wrong and where I needed to fix my self. I realized that what he said, at a certain point, was right. It is indeed a vicious cycle, it’s tiring and I have to make it stop… make it better.


He sat by the stairs, I think he’s looking at me, I am not sure but I can felt he was. His mere presence is a comforting proof that he is there, that he cared. Tired but caring.


I am note sure if I am making sense of what I said here. This might not mean anything to you as a reader but it definitely meant a lot to me.


I woke up today feeling reverent. I know things will be better after today.


My laptop got fixed for 10K. I am not sure if I have enough to get me through until next cut-off. Nevertheless with all the lessons I learned from this adventure, I am definite that I will be able to get through life the farthest possible distance.


I had my gadget fixed. Next step is to fix my self.



P.S.

While driving to the service center, I was contemplating on this poem:


"DON'T QUIT"
Author Unknown

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will.
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with the twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don't give up through the pace seems slow.
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worse,
That you must not quit.


15 comments:

E said...

i love the ending, very SEX AND THE CITY LOL!

How are you? Route 196 tomorrow night? LOL

Pinoy Rookie Blogger said...

for sure, you can retrieve the files...

The Green Man said...

@ Pinoy Rookie Blogger: I didn't lose any file... twas just a broken lcd :-D

The Green Man said...

@ E: I am good... thanks for cheking on me. Ikaw kamusta ka?

Ano meron sa Route 169? Text mo naman ako, nacoconfuse ako kung ano talaga yung number na ginagamit mo.

Missed na kita at yung legaly blond bondings natin.

P.S. Wangs was in the gallery the entire day today kasi may photo shoot sila :-D Kinamusta kita, hihihi.

cb :: 林偉文 said...

nice post! reminds me of this story i wrote a long time ago about shoes being broken and hearts needing mending. something really cheesy like that.

Angelo said...

ey, i was beginning to wonder what happened to you. no post in 13 days?

glad to know you're feeling more optimistic today.

lastly, how does one actually break the display screen of his laptop?

take care.

The Green Man said...

@ Angelo: Sorry for bein so quiet for a while. Been busy with work.

But I am am back in action now :-D

How do you break it? Punch it with your right fist!

Angelo said...

heya, you really are back in action! just saw the most recent posts. you're on a roll! haha! =) great, great. will read the posts later. =)

re: the laptop, i had an idea it was something like that. i mean, your hard drive wouldn't have survived if it were a fall, right?

wonder what your laptop did for it to deserve a beating. ;P poor laptop.

take care.

The Green Man said...

@ Angelo: The laptop... it didn't do anything except that it's the only thing in front of me then... staring at me :-D

Angelo said...

More than the laptop, how's your fist?! I hope you didn't need to have it bandaged or something similar. =)

The Green Man said...

@ Angelo: My fist is alright. Nothing serious... just some crapped skin.

I am thinking of getting my own punching bag na. I am getting tired of the walls, cabinets and fridge. LOL. and laptop to add to my list. LOL!

Angelo said...

LOL! Yes, you should probably get a punching bag already. Instead of hitting all these things that don't deserve the beating, at least you're sure that a punching bag can withstand all the punches and kicks that you give it precisely because it was made exactly for that reason. LOL!

Or enroll at Elorde (it's super good for releasing tension.)

Or how about a baking class with Heny Sison? Who knows? All that rage (?) or frustration (?) or negative energy will lead you to whipping a baked masterpiece. =)

Take care.

The Green Man said...

@ Angelo: The punching bag and Elorde advices are good. Thanks.

But I am not sure about the Heny Sison baking class. LOL. I think she's funny... i mean silly, funny. I used to watch her TV shows with my younger bro and sis and just laugh all the way. So no to baking muna.

I am thinking of going back to painting, just to release some tension and help my mind focus on something other than angst. hihihi

Thanks for stying tuned. I sincerely appreciate it :-D

The Green Man said...

@ Angelo: The punching bag and Elorde advices are good. Thanks.

But I am not sure about the Heny Sison baking class. LOL. I think she's funny... i mean silly, funny. I used to watch her TV shows with my younger bro and sis and just laugh all the way. So no to baking muna.

I am thinking of going back to painting, just to release some tension and help my mind focus on something other than angst. hihihi

Thanks for staying tuned. I sincerely appreciate it :-D

Angelo said...

Re: Painting. Go for it! =) That should be interesting.

Then post photos of your works (take not of the "s"... haha!) so your readers can do an art interpretation.

Memories of a Humanities class... Good days.

Take care always.

0=)