Charity never faileth

The place I work for hosted a fund raiser/ silent auction for an enduring lady who is battling cancer. We had generous important people attend the function. It’s such a heart warming and humbling experience to be in the presence of a very brave soul living her life despite her health condition.

I came to thinking of all the brave hearted people living with HIV. People, who did not lose hope and continued to live life the most productive, loving and most healthy ways. I wish all those people living with HIV … or perhaps those who are negative as well… would take her circumstances as an inspiration and live a good and fruitful life. It’s a cliché, but I still believe that life is too precious to be wasted on non-sense experiences. To make the event extra memorable, I received a surprise visit from three of my lovely posies friends.

We had a good set-up, cocktail bars and tables, really nice food and drinks being passed around, professional food and beverages staff and impressive artworks for auction… all came from generous hearts... An example of deliberate act of kindness. Each and everyone of us has a universal responsibility to take care of one another so let’s do our share in pitching in to fill the bowl of hope and love to keep this world a nice place to live.

Let’s keep the love flowing.

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I said the heart is strong, but I realized the mind is stronger. Unfortunately the body can only take so much. I came home last night extremely tired. I busied my self with work the entire day today to keep my mind from thinking of what happened the other evening... to keep my self from depression.

While on my way home bracing the heavy traffic on a payday-Friday, I received a text message from a friend... it read...

"Sometimes you just want to quit when things start hurting you. You want to leave everything as it is before the pain gets worse. But once you remember how much you’ve prayed, how much you really wanted it and why you were fighting for it in the first place, hopes comes back to your heart. And maybe… just maybe… it’s worth going this far."

Is it really worth staying when you were asked to leave? Is it worth giving up on something you've invested so much emotions and energy? Would you give up on someone for whatever reason there is? Some said yes and some said no... right now, I really don't know.

My intuition is telling me to stay a little longer, exert a little more effort and show a little more love and kindness. Hopefully things will turn out alright in the end. This is my nature, I can't go against it.

The heart is a strong organ

I am feeling extremely low right now. My mind is too clouded to function properly.

I had an terrible argument with my partner last night and he asked me to take my things and leave. He said he loves me but do not need me. And that I do not owe him anything... not even an apology.

The heart is a strong organ, so strong that it can pump blood throughout the body... but weakest when emotionally affected.

I need to get distracted from all of this. Please help.

I got a new "spark"

Tired and a little boozed from a get-together at Rout 169 bar Katipunan extension, Quezon City, I drove home last night accompanied by a little gadget sitting on my SUV’s front passenger seat. Back in the bar, I received a guarantee of different experience and ultimate satisfaction.

First thing I did was plugged it, put the ear piece and WHOA!!! The promise is real! Initially it was trance, then I shifted to meditation, then voice and finally classical. It sounded like everyone was there playing their tools and singing their pieces in my presence.

I am now a proud owner of a Philips Go Gear Sparks™. It has the most amazing, user friendly features I’ve been looking for an MP3 player. It has FullSound™ to bring CD listening experience to MP3, MP3 and WMA playback, 1.5" Full colour display for easy navigation and album art, personalized sideshows to accompany your music listening, AMR voice recording and playback and a whole lot more you never thought an MP3 player would offer.

Don’t be the last to get this amazing music contraption. Get one for you’re your self now.

Go to http://www.philips.co.uk/index.page and click on consumer products for more information.

They also have an upcoming event called Bandwith™ to be held at Bonifacio High Street onJune 6, 2009. All budding music bands are invited to join. Check this site for further details: http://philipsbandwidth.blogspot.com/

As Philips put it… Let your ear decide, because sound matters. "Sense and simplicity".

Click this link to go directly to MP3 and media players:

http://www.consumer.philips.com/consumer/en/gb/consumer/cc/_categoryid_MP3_AND_MEDIA_PLAYERS_CA_GB_CONSUMER/

Coming out 2: A thank you message

It’s amazing how people's lives changes when they find out that one of their friends or relative is living with HIV.

When I came out I’ve been receiving phone calls from friends and the love and support I receive from them is overwhelming.

I was chatting with a friend from Dubai, who’ve heard the news from a common close friend. In our chat conversation, he said:

"Kilala kita, one destination lang sayo ang buhay na ito and there are so many things that you have to experience, I don't know if by choice or destiny. You're one weird and brave soul."

For some strange reason, I felt complimented. He's physically far yet I feel the nearness of his presence.

I have outed my self to my family, several close friends and workmates.I received "positive" responses, each is unique in its own way. Every response helped me become a better person and I know that I have the same effect to these people's lives, one way or another.

Like most people living with HIV, I too have lots of concerns about how people will accept me for having this situation. But I eventually realized that those fears are keeping me from being the person I want to be, from being productive, from living a good and healthy life… from being happy and continue spreading love. Hence I decided to kick them all off and liberating myself by admitting to my self and to the everyone that this is what I have right now.

I don’t mind being HIV positive… I hope you feel the same way too.

To my family, to all my friends, to the people I hold dear in my heart and all those who's accepted me regardless of my situation… THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE LOVE AND SUPPORT.

To you who’s reading this blog… don’t wait until someone get’s diagnosed with HIV before you tell them you love them. Always make the people you care for know you love them.

www.positivism.com (2nd issue)

POSITIVISM 2nd issue is out... I am officially out na din.

Hello world. I hope we are both ready for each other.

Let's all keep the love flowing.

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READ, UNDERSTAND AND BE EMPOWERED

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I feel bad for not being able to post any entry for a while. I am pretty caught up with work and I am drowning with responsibilities.

To give you an idea of what has been happening to me lately:
1. I went out of town for the holy week and had a marvelous time,
2. I now have a partner and settled my self in a serious relationship,
3. I am living in Quezon City with my partner,
4. I am recuperating from a traumatic boil experience,
5. My car's alarm system is malfunctioning,
6. I am coming out as an HIV + guy soon,
7. Work, right now, is like a roller coaster ride,
8. I am still trying to figure out what to make of my life.